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If God hates homosexuality, why didn't he change me?

A few years ago, before I accepted my sexuality, I was afraid of my recurring lust over other men and decided to do something about it. I was raised Catholic, so I was taught that Homosexuality was a grave sin. I thought, like many Christians, that if I prayed to God, he would heal me of my "problem". I went to numerous spiritual retreats, had many encounters with God, participated in many inner-healing dynamics and prayer circles, and nothing worked. Why didn't God change me? Eventually, I learned that God loves me for who I am, like a true father should love-- unconditionally. I'm sure that if Homosexuality was a sin, he would have changed me when he had the chance, because who I'm attracted to is completely out of my control. His will be done. Pretending to be straight and "praying and willing the gay away" only brought misery and self-hate to my life. There are more important things than who you sleep with, like the amount of joy you bring in the lives of others and how much good you do in the world. Those are things that make God smile. But I had given my life and soul to God! I Accepted Jesus Christ as my savior! I did EVERYTHING you say I need to do, and STILL I am attracted to men. Why is it so hard for some of you to believe this? I had given 100% of my heart, body and soul to God, but to this day I'm STILL gay! If it was his will, my homosexuality would have been erased! BUT IT WAS NOT! Jesus himself always stuck by the castaways of Jewish society, the proistitutes, lepers, cripples, he spoke of love and compassion- even for your enemies! "I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.". Gandhi was right.

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Me too. I prayed from age seventeen till now age 27. The feelings that I had for men subsided and I had more control over those feelings, but I'm still gay today. I'm celibate and I don't engage in sexual acts with men, but I still find men attractive. So, I don't know... I know God still loves us. Jesus was tempted to sin until he was crucified, so...
well the new ps3 was out..at that time he had to get it
You answered your own question.
Congrats on accepting yourself!
God is cruel and enjoys suffering. Hence natural disasters.
God does not hate homosexuality because God is an imaginary being incapable of feeling human emotion or lack-there-of. Homosexuality is as human as heterosexuality. Stupid people cannot accept this fact. All stupid people should be shot.
you have to stop your own sin, you become gay on your own sorry, don't blame God and God doesn't like sin you commit those sins by having a homo relation God will not smile done on you and be happy
It is the power of an evil spirit that drives people that way. Same thing with porn and every other sexual sin. When I had the spirit cast out, I stopped thinking that way. But first you have to agree with God that it is sin. Read what the Apostle Paul says, "no one who lives this way will inherit the Kingdom of God." The first thing Jesus preached was to repent from our sins. Then when/if you fail (sin), we confess our sins "and He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins."
Because Satan is standing in his way
He would never change you because who you sleep with is irrelevant to the kind of person you are. God is not a bigot, God is not that monster in the buy-bull.
God doesn't hate homosexuality. His homophobic followers do. I am glad you are being true to yourself instead of trying to live a lie to please these bigots.
...or there is no god, and nobody worth listening to cares. Be yourself. EDIT: In case my opinion wasn't heard, BE YOURSELF!
Hmm well there are sins in my life that I continue to choose to do. I get mad at myself for it after and I feel like I have grieved God tremendously, but I know He still loves me, and it doesn't mean that I have given up trying to get specific sins out of my life. I personally don't feel condemnation over the sin in my life, although, again, I do struggle to overcome it with Gods help. I think that it's easy to feel condemnation (which isn't from God, by the way, its from the enemy) but God does not want us to feel that. On the same token, He does not want us to give up and say "Well, that's just the way that I am". My heart goes out to you. God loves you and He isn't finished with you yet. I hope you aren't angry with Him, and I hope you realize that He has never left you. I believe that He desires to change you still, like He does with all of us. But make no mistake that He loves you NO LESS. God bless you
God will give you the grace to resist performing acts of homosexuality, you have to cooperate, noone has to commit sins, we can be chaste, pray for the grace you will surely recieve it.
Axl, I am a heterosexual female and I have no idea what it's like to be a male with a same sex attraction. What I can tell you though is that if I lust after a man that I'm not married to, it's a sin. Lust is lust. It's just as wrong if I lust after men as it is if you do. God has not taken away that thing that makes me notice men. It's still there. But if I lust, I am sinning. Homosexuality is just one sin that we can be born to have a tendency toward. Some people are born with a tendency to lie, or steal etc... We wouldn't just say, "since I was born with a tendency to lie, God will understand". We have all sinned. We will stand before God and be judged based on the ten commandments. If you'd like to see how you'd do, go here. http://livingwaters.com/good/ 1 Corinthians 6:9 -11 Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived, neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor the covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers, will inherit the kingdom of God. Such were some of you; but you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and in the Spirit of our God.
God doesn't change people, nor does he tell sinners to change. The message of the gospel is self-denial, death to self, take up your cross and follow Christ. You die and Christ lives in you, this is the gospel message. You can rant all you want, but the Bible condemns homosexuality. Jesus said.."If any man will come after me, let him deny himself and take up his Cross and follow me. If you follow Christ, he will not lead you to transgress the Laws that condemn homosexuality. The OT condemns it, the NT condemns it. I can see that Jesus is not your God, your sex organ is your god.
God hates no one. He loves, accepts, and understands all. Let no one, no book tell you otherwise.
if i was "gay" according to the rest of the world, i wouldnt be gay to myself or to God. you know why? because i would choose to not be gay! homosexuality is a choice.
God's love for you, along with His grace, is sufficient for everyone as the Bible says. I am sorry to hear of the struggles you have faced in your faith and I applaud your efforts toward healing. There is little room for debate, homosexuality is a sin and God does not condone it or simply overlook it just as He doesn't any other sin, no matter how small we humans might think it to be. You say that your lust and/or attraction isn't up to you. While this is true to an extent, you do have a choice of what to do with it. Nobody, including God, wants you to suffer or be miserable, trying to be someone you are not. You are far from hopeless; you can still be delievered from these feelings. Know the truth of God that He does not support homosexuality, yet remember the grace of God and that this is a fallen creation, and we are all fallen humans; short of God's original design and plan. The afflictions you've been born with are not from God, and are not designed by him. When the man was born blind in the New Testament, the disciples asked him, "Why was this man born blind? Was it his sin or his parents' sin?" Jesus replied, "Neither." A lot more goes on in the scripture but my point is very Biblically rooted: the blind man didn't deserve to be born blind, nor did he have any choice in whether or not to be blind, but he did have every opportunity to radiate God's glory despite his weakness, and he did have total control of how to respond to his blindness. He didn't deny it existed and act as though he weren't born blind, similar to how you may have tried to escape your homosexuality in your past. I say this with genuine Christian love, that your attractions are sinful but that doesn't change who you are at your core to God. Yes it is sin, yes it is damaging and dangerous, but so is every other sin. Do you think the blind man never questioned God about his blindness? What he did to deserve it? Do you think he didn't beg God for healing that never seemed to come? Of course he did. This world is under great influence from a great many dark spirits and forces that we cannot see, but by the power of Christ, we can be saved in this battlezone. Don't loose hope, and don't hide behind the fact that you haven't been miraculously "healed" like the handicapped folks on some televangelist's shows. Be patient in your healing process and don't give up. It wasn't God's will that the man be born blind anymore than it was His will that you feel the way that you do. In fact, His will is and was quite the opposite. Yes, there are more "important" things going on in the life and heart of a Christian, but that doesn't mean you should forsake your sin by covering it with the joy you have to offer. This has got to be really tough on you, now and in your past. I encourage you to be patient with yourself with grace while continuing to experience God's healing. Best wishes and God Bless.
"If God hates homosexuality, why didn't he change me?" Perhaps God isn't any were near as IGNORANT or BIGOTED as some of the "Christians" who appear on this forum. I agree, if Jesus were here today he'd be hanging out with the beggars, the druggies and probably all the other rejects of society and I'm sure he'd be appalled at the ignorance and hatred being done in his name. They've completely missed the point. As John Lennon once said "any love is good love"
Very well put, Sweetie. God made you exactly as you are and that was NO MISTAKE. The problem with most religious fanatics is that they don't realize how they contradict themselves. They believe that God is all powerful and that He is all good, but then they think that he would make something bad, like us gays. And to top it off, God makes something bad and then suddenly he can't do anything about it because he no longer has any power??? Makes no sense. They also believe that God is perfect, but then they think He made a mistake with gays??? Another thing they don't get is that being gay is a lot more than just "lusting" after the same sex. We're gay even if we never have another sexual tryst again, just like hetero people are straight even if they never have sex again. And you are so right about God smiling when you do good in this world to help your fellow man. Trust me, judging and condemning people are not the way to Heaven so all these people who think they're "righteous" will have another thing coming to them.
I could not have said it better. Best question on answers.
Indeed, no worries! I was raised Catholic too (and, yes, I'm gay too) but I guess I was lucky in that I had priests and nuns and family who were fairly enlightened and parted with the "dogma" of the Church when it came to homosexuality. I was always taught that as long as you are a good person, treat others with love and respect, you're doing all God could ask or expect from you. Because, really, why would an All Powerful and Merciful and Knowong Entity care who you sleep with? As long as the involved parties are consenting adults, I don't see why God would give a patootie about it. God is Love. Love knows no bounds. Live, Love, Be Kind, Be Happy.