Mystical Angels - Christians how strong would you faith be if you had to go threw this kind of life for 7 yrs?

Christians how strong would you faith be if you had to go threw this kind of life for 7 yrs?

some times when I close my eye's i see these eye's and they blink. All sorts of evil faces.....where the heck can a mind come up with this? I mean such demonic faces, how does the mind just get sick and create these image's? I mean these eye's blink... My sickness even has a sense of humor. When I was getting dental work done showing my teeth in x-rays, a low thought said I wish I could show them my teeth. I almost started to laugh and I could not help it. With a image scaring the doctors with these demonic teeth.There has been other signs of humor in this illness, sarcastic humor. What can create humor, doesn't humor need intelligence?Not to mention I have a vile manner of telling people to **** my ****..... over and over in my head. Talk with Jesus I sometimes say it....bugs me, just spits out. I always say I am possessed, because of what happens at the church, getting wiped around and stuff. My mental illness is quite irritated to prayers and worship. The shrink says he has never heard of a sickness communicate with prayer as I talk about. If a pastor ever says those that need spiritual healing over the congregation in a prayer, I put up quite a show with my body and my head. They once prayed this prayer and I was forced to sit down because my head went in a Mad scream back and forth NO way. I was not screaming but noises were coming from me....I guess if you were taken like that you would make a noise as well. so have anyone ever heard of a mental illness like this? Not to mention I have 1000's of voices. The only reason I keep my sanity I believe is because I seek after God and I know in my heart I will be free. How would you be before the lord after 7 yrs like this? The pastors in every church just stare at you. They say you are not demon possessed. I think they are looking for someone like the movie the exorcist? I keep wondering if I should bring some pop corn to the pastor when he just stares at me. I was once on my knees weeping because of all the satanic thoughts being in my head, and I was saying sorry to God for being a very wicked person. I was waling in church at the alter. Baling my eye's out. I stood up and I fell straight to the floor. I was shaking left right and center my whole body, like I was having a seizure, but I was fine in my head. The Christians came over to me and placed their hands over me and tried to cast out the demon. (their Idea). I went from a low pitch to a High pitch. I think I got the whole beat of the cord. I was screaming, or it was screaming. Then they pulled their hands away. I guess I was really loud. I was so confused about what happened I did not want to leave the church. I wanted this demon out of me. Then they called the cops on me....and do not want to try again, and say I am not demon possessed? Why would they say that? I have tried all kinds of church's. The same happens, I am wiped around like a rag doll sometimes. But they say I am not demon possessed. The pastor told me to search the spirit and test it. I called on God and asked if I was possessed if he would show me the spirit and frighten me. That instant a life like picture came to me and I was frightened. I told the pastor this he just shrugged his shoulders and said you are not demon possessed. Talk about NO help from my family when I need them. The only thing good out of all this 7 yr walk is I learned how to love the Lord. SO how would you be with your church and your faith if you had this for 7 yrs and you do not know how to be free? hope you can read it all... no help from my church family....not from people on Y/A. Some Christians have been good to me.

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TOO MUCH TO READ THE DEVIL COULD KICK GODS FANNY! I WATCHED A GAY PORNO I AM A PROUD HOMOSEXUAL!
too much reading!
Sounds difficult, but you aren't the first to endure difficult trials, I'd like to think that I would stay strong through anything. Job is a great example of staying strong through difficult trials.
ummmmm maybe the devils talkin to you, go to a different church and talk to the priest and pray
no offense but i think you need help. you take god and church waaaaaaaayyyyy too seriously...calm down
Thanks for sharing God bless
That WWE girl needs some serious prayer. Anyway as long as God is in my life it doesn't matter what I'm faced with because I know that he will see me through it. Read the bible it has all the answers you need.
You are under attack, and it is VERY REAL, I know a man that could help you, He had similar problems. Alot of Christians get attacked like this. There are people that deal with this, this isnt a joke, I know you are miserable. Please email me if you want, I will tell you what I know.
Confess JESUS as LORD ask JESUS to forgive you of your sins and come into your life and be your boss from this point own, but you have to mean it, not just saying the words. Rom 10:9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. Rom 10:10 For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
Keep trying to find someone to help you. Those pastors seem to be afraid and frankly I don't think that they know what to do. Seek out a Catholic priest and ask them WHO you should contact for help. (The Catholic church recognizes the realty of possession and are prepared to deal with this.) No, I am not Catholic myself. If you are truly possessed pray constantly and seek out others to pray for you as well. How would I be with my Faith if I had to live as you have? .......I lived my own hell and my faith increased, as far as the church is concerned I'm not so sure that they have ever helped me do anything accept perhaps meet some really sweet people. God Bless!
I wish you best of luck my friend. I myself was always in a pit of agony. People hated me. People would call me terrible racsist names. Just because I was different. People now a days hate different. They see some one acting a little pecular and say they're possesed or weird. You're not possesed. I think you're a good person. If you ever need to talk to someone to let it all out, you can come email me. I'm here to be a good friend to all I come across.
I believe you ARE demon-possessed, and I will pray for you. When this demon attacks you, tell it, "I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ." Several years ago, I was talking to a girl who was experiencing a demonic visitation every night - when she was in bed (but not asleep), a black panther would come into her room and come right up to her face, then disappear. I gave her the same instructions I gave you, and later she wrote to say that the panther had since disappeared and didn't return. I think the people who were laying hands on you were on the right track, but they stopped too soon! Your voice got higher and you got more violent because the demon was being affected by the prayer. It's like punishing a spoiled child who has never been punished before - they just scream louder and kick harder, but it has to be done. Most churches today have abandoned the Bible and are "worldly" - they believe as the world believes, and have denied the Power of God, which is the only thing that can cure you. I will continue to pray for you until you are free. God bless you.
I don't know, I can't say if my faith is as strong as yours. You are blessed for being able to hold out so long, and still have a loving relationship with our Lord. You are an example of what a saint would be. No matter how much the deceiver tries to control you, you still do what is right, and love and serve the Lord. My prayers are with you Blessings
I have seen this before and I believe that you are demon possessed because the truth is not in you. Your false doctrines have opened the door to the demonic world and you do not obey God's Word. Jesus said that ONLY those who have been Born Again will enter the Kingdom of God. That mean's no one can enter unless they are possessed by the Holy Ghost. Acts 2:38 shows us how we can become filled with the Holy Ghost and the Book of Ephesians teaches us how to keep the Holy Ghost. I believe that at one time, you became Born Again, and I believe that God gave you many wonderful revelations of Himself to you. But pride lifted has lifted you up and you lost the indwelling of the Holy Spirit and has been replaced with demonic forces. My advice to you, seek a Ministry that speacializes in demonic deliverances. As Jesus has said, go and buy oil(The Holy Spirit) from where you first got it. Remember, no one can be sinless. It is only the indwelling of God Himself that saves us. It is His righteousness that becomes our righteousness. It is not what we do that saves us, it is who we are. But being faithful and obedient keeps our salvation. Jesus paid the price of our sins by dying in our place so that we could be forgiven so that our bodies can become the Temple of the Holy Ghost.
I can't diagnose you.. obviously but your experience sounds just like my friend from high school. He was ultimately diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia among other things such as severe clinical depression etc. He heard lots of voices and saw lots of faces and most of them he claimed were demonic. He even went through a period where he believed that he was Christ himself. He had lots of strange experiences with his body as well. It must be devastating for you to endure this. Hang on to what faith you have left though. I know you say that others have tried to expell demons from you but ultimately if anyone can expell a demon from you it would be YOU. Remember, Satan attacks hardest those who have the potential to beat him. Why would he work so hard on someone who would never be a threat. YOU must have a strong spirit and he must be threatened by it. Keep building that spirit. Don't give up.
Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Fast and pray. God's grace is sufficient.
I admire your strength. You held up for so long. I pity the people around you. They probably got scared out of their wits, then thought that you were just acting when you started screaming with a high pitch. I realized that the democracy given to your people up there was too much, so much so that many have even forgotten what their nation was built upon. No offense. Keep up the faith. I pray that God will free you soon from all this misery.