Mystical Angels - I think i may be an empath?

I think i may be an empath?

hello my name is Gerald Watson, i am 15 years old, and my life has been drastically changing ever since I hit this age. My thought have become more abstract to explain to others, it is even making it difficult as i write this post. Ever since about age 12 ive always been enthralled by spirituality, i read my bible in class and discussed it with my close friend david often. however after my dad died when i was thirteen i lost my faith in christ and went on as an athiest, as an athiest i felt a sense of hoplessness and i often made others feel bad, to make myself feel better. When I started 9th grade these impulses reached an alltime high for me, untill another friend of mine introduced me to buddhisim, and gave me a book to read called "insight meditation- the practice of freedom" as i read i started meditating daily and for the first time became more intune with my emotions, i made it a daily activity to analyze every single emotion i felt and find its true source, i dont know why i did this the book didnt call for it, yet it always made me calm and return to a peaceful state where i could remain until i felt another emotion to be analyzed thus allowing me to retain peace of mind. through this practice i became intune with all my emotions and i came to the conclusion that all emotions i felt merely stem from 2 main emotions LOVE and FEAR. does anyone else share this view? FOR EXAMPLE: I would feel sad at times when my mom or other adults would tell me what to do, i analyzed this feeling to the root cause i found as "fear of being controlled" EXAMPLE 2: i would feel a burst of happyness when i helped a friend of mine or did something good, i found the root of this emotion was "love of helping" My story: on december 12 2008 i was caught buying weed at school ( i used it for meditation) when the officer at my school put me in cuffs i didnt panic, i let the initial fear of getting introuble phase through my body and pass, as opposed to holding on to it and keeping it in my subconsious mind. i learned this ability through constant insight meditation, and analization of my emotions,after getting put up for expulsion the next 2 weeks of my life were spend in constant deppression, it was a depression that i thought i was sound enought to combat, however i couldnt, it was at this time i beleive the dormant empath in me was awakened. i wasnt just feeling my own sadness, unaware i was feeling the emotions from my mom, and she is diagnosed with a depression that has plauged her mind for years. (Could this be an empathic ability?) I infer that the reason i couldnt shake this depression was because i was taking on so many emotions from my family, that i couldnt differ them from my own, i can always control my own emotions but i couldnt control and stop the ones that surrounded me because i am a completly different person then them. In my depression, i found myself taking hikes and being outside more, i felt this weird tranquility from nature, i can only describe it as a comforting blanket i could use to cope with all the negative emotions i was feeling, i felt at peace when i was in nature and depressed at home. when i finnaly got admitted to an alternative school the depression subsided and i was free again. i felt as if it was a godsend! At this time i was still unaware of what an empath was, however at my new school i spread peace and love to everyone i met,ive always never had trouble making friends but it was alot easier here, i felt as if people were drawn to me, for insight on there problems. I began couseling the other students on how they felt, and what got them sent to this alternative program. As a part of the alternative program each student is assigned a social worker, to help get us back on the right track i suppose... my social worker sent me to a rehab program near where i lived. when the time came and my mom took me to the clinic i was told to wait in a waiting area untill my assigned counselor came for me. As i waited i saw this poor looking woman who appeared to be addicted to things much worse then weed. I remember being overcome by a overwhelming mix of sadness and fear, i struggled to find out where this feeling came from i had nothing to fear or be afraid of, i only felt it when i looked at this woman. As i kept waiting the lady began to speak to a man sitting next to her, she told him how her addiction to crack had affected her baby and, how she was doing rehab to get her baby back. I felt another wave of sadness in my body, at this time my mind opened, and my dormant empath had been awakened. I realized the source of my sadness came from this woman, i thought this was an ability of my mind from reading all the buddist texts i had read earlier, but my gut told me it was something far more radiant! 2 days later i was reasearching psychology, and came across a link named "spiritual healing" i went with my intuition and clicked it, it took me to a new page with a list of couseling

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what was your question? I'm sorry, but do you expect people to read all of that?
Way too long.
Not to be a jerk, but I don't think that feeling happy around happy people and feeling sad around sad people is some extraordinary and unique trait!
This is not exactly a question. You are awfully young to have had so many deep thoughts and so many experiences, some of which were not easy. But I wonder if you are using some of this as an excuse for getting 'into trouble' and for not doing school work - you could hardly have had the time when you were reading, thinking and meditating so much. If you are the age you claim to be, I would suggest that you just get on with what you are meant to be doing at this time, that is school work, and working through any problems you may have. Looking into Buddhism, meditation (and some schools in the USA (?) do this as part of their lesson plan) and spiritual healing may be a good idea for fulfillling your potential when you are older and have settled on a path in life, but,as a teenager, you and your view of the world around may change. Yes, I did know a very unusual teenager, who was wise, empathetic, knowledgeable and really, very impressive, but he got on with academic work and with getting qualifications, while still following the same spiritual path, but without brushes with the law. You may be able to do the same, but now is not the time to decide, not until you have settled down and can apply yourself to school and college work Good luck with your future path, whatever it may be. We all walk our own road, but strive to reach the same still centre of our being.
I'm glad you're good at writing otherwise I wouldn't have been able to read all of that. :) Well, from what I have read and analyzed you could either be sympathetic to others due to your past experiences, therefore making you draw to the conclusion you're an Empath because you have felt such emotions as this, or analyzed them through meditation and such, you're an Empath, or both. Also upon reading this big.. uh piece of writing, I have to agree with Eustacia and suggest that you keep your mind on academics and your future for now, and if you do have spare time- then use that for meditation, reading, whatever you pleasure. Being a teenager, a little younger than you, I know what it's like to be thrown into this somewhat awakening stage I guess you could call it.. Uhm as far as religion, I have (and yes I vaguely remember as a little girl asking my mother often to let me learn about Wicca) since I was around 6 been asking my mom to let me learn about Wicca, witchcraft, etc- Now that I'm older and she's more open to it, I have tons of books on it, herbal references, crystal references, etc.. The nature portion of Wicca, or the natural part of Wicca has been amazing to learn about and experience.. But as a high school student who is determined to have an outstanding successful future- I mainly learn about my academics and spend hours a day working, studying, thinking about school and my future because right now I understand that should be my priority in school.. I still occasionally read, meditate, do a blessing, or just incorporate mmm... magick in my life- but I pay attention to school overall. I suggest you do the same, but you sound like an Empath to me- or just highly skilled in the patterns and emotions of the human mind and therefore have the ability to interpret others emotions through physical appearances, body language, etc.. Do your homework and work hard in school. It'll pay off in the future and then you can become more religiously and spiritually involved. EDIT: You know what.. Upon reading my answer- I feel it was a bit cold.. (Someone else disagreed with me as well I guess..) Religion and spirituality are very important to some people, and faith keeps them going. Keep working at improving you empathetic abilities and continue to observe emotions you experience and the emotions of others.