Mystical Angels - Please read and help me...?

Please read and help me...?

Hi, i live and born in england, before i was born the fortune teller have said i am tall, smart, handsome and caring but my life may look desirable outside but lies endless bad luck and suffering. as i am chinese, which i have been neglected and verbally bullied throughout my school life. i never had a girlfriend yet i have many people saying i am good looking. i am very sensitive and caring, yet no one seems to care about me. i try to make friends and treat all my fellows nicely...yet when i need them the most they are not there... my dad have divorced my mum for another women when i was young and my mum blamed me for being unlucky to the family... when i sleep i stare out the window wrapping my arms around my body and cry alone in my bed every night...praying for an explanation, telling myself "you are strong my boy, you are precious and no one can put you down." i use to put family, friends and education before me Howeve now I have been forced to change i feel what is the most important to me is myself, i feel that only "me" understands me and we have been through everything together.. but i feel i am stepping outside of the norm, please help me am i mentally ok?

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Everything works out in this world. Life is a journey so just sit back and enjoy the ride.
well life is just like that it fucks you like a dog during mating season. its not very enjoyable. just bare through it listen to some music that will take your mind off things it works for me anyway.
Your Heartbroken, because you've depended on humans for your love and affirmation as we all have. I am a christian author/poet and there is something from my book i would like to share with you, if you are interested, it is a poem. if you are my email is proverbs31forhim@yahoo.com psalm 34:18 The Lord is near the brokenhearted, he saves those crushed in spirit.
Yes you're fine. That you have this kind of internal dialogue is a good sign. I would stop feeling so sorry for yourself and take some measures to change your situation. Frankly, no one is going to tell you you're "bad looking," so you will have to assess that for yourself; try working out a little. Also, girls aren't into sensitive guys unless they have children or want families...build some self-esteem and confidence and don't be a "nice, caring" guy so much...confident and rich is much better. Stop looking at everything as "...me...my...myself...I feel I..."me"...am i?...I am...". You aren't responsible for your parent's failure and no one gives a damn.
Yeah your are mentally ok there is many people that probably feel like that sometimes You just need to remember that need to keep yourself happy because if your always trying to do for others you will be miserable and you will only find friends who use you.
You were neglected and bullied because you are Asian? What sort of ignorance goes on in that school? I live in the U.S. Most of the students here are Asian. I think it would be wise of you to enroll in a self defense class so that you can not only defend yourself against bullies, but these classes will also teach you to have confidence in yourself. The reason that your friends are not there when you need them is because your parents probably make them feel unwelcome in your house. Plus, your parents did not do their job in raising you to believe in yourself. You are NOT unlucky to the family. They are stupid for blaming their own faults on you. They are wrong. Your mother is afraid to blame herself and it is very ignorant and cruel to say that you are unlucky. Stop believing her! They are'nt acting like parents at all. Instead they are acting like stupid children who lash out at others so that they can feel superior. You asked if you are mentally ok, Honey, you are the only one in the family that IS mentally ok. you are a heroic person who has the maturity and common sense to see yourself as you really are; a strong, good looking and smart young man. You have a very strong mind to have survived as well as you have under such miserable conditions. You pray for an explanation. Here is the explanation; you have been lied to, you are not unlucky and you are not inferior to anyone! You are a wonderful boy. You are strong and you have a beautiful spirit. One day soon you will do great things. Best of luck to you.
No, you have not stepping outside of the norm. You're being Chinese has the unfortunate problem of the Chinese culture being used in the way you were raised, and that along with the divorce of your parents and the Chinese culture made your mum blame you for being unlucky to the family. You were not raised in a loving family, and this has had an impact on how you are judged by other people, as people may see that you are not a happy person and will want to avoid contact with you because of their perception of you which is not the perception you have for yourself. You are doing exactly what one in your situation needs to do, and that is pull yourself up by your own boot straps and be good to yourself while doing so as you get on with living your life the way you chose to live it. You are doing what is healthy for you, and you are mentally okay by doing so. A lot of people will put themselves down and go into a depression in such a situation as yours, but you are wired differently and you have discovered how to be good to yourself by telling yourself that you are a strong my boy, you are precious and no one can put you down, and that includes yourself, and what is most important to you is yourself. There is no reason for you to feel that you are stepping outside of the norm, as you are building self confidence in yourself, and that is all that matters. Take care of yourself, be good to yourself, and move on with your life, and that may include pursuing an education so you can better your life and become successful despite what others may think of you. You are the master of your own destiny, and now is the time to pursue your destiny and never look back. Good luck to you sir. I wish you the best in life and hope you will succeed in changing yourself for yourself and by yourself.
First of all forget what the fortune teller said. They read into people from words spoken or even said. If your parents are tall, most likely you would be too. The fortune teller can see this. Likewise if your parents are decent looking then most likely you will be handsome or at least not ugly. There could've been a number of things to clue a fortune teller in. Expectations of others just doesn't work. I don't care how well you treat someone they might not reciprocate. They aren't being hateful just doing their own thing. It's ok to be kind to people but don't lose yourself in the process and don't do it for the returns because as I said it often doesn't materialize. A book I think would be great for you is called 'The Four Agreements' It's a short book and it will help you put things in perspective. I don't know if you know who Ellen DeGeneres is but here's what she thought of the book. "So wowed was DeGeneres by The Four Agreements that she recommended it to Oprah on the air. Oprah read the book that night, bought 500 more copies for her friends and colleagues".... I'll let you google about the book and decide for yourself. As far as your mom goes, she sounds superstitious but she is totally wrong in this instance.
hey change may be a good thing. if you change yourself to be a more self secured, confident person would that make you happy? don't worry you will not change completely the good in you will never fade away. you were born with it. you will only change your attitudes. take some classes about self-development and see what you can get out of it. good things may be waiting for you. be positive. forget about the fortune teller. live your life.